first thing first; Caleb Followill puts my 6+ year crush on Billie Joe Armstrong to rest. they dont fit my Jake Gyllenhaal standers of sexy but something about their voices a5 sexiiiii.

move on now

wait.. from the rollin of her spanish tongue to imaa own that pussy ?! seriously? who put lil wayne in here!!

move on x2

so finally i've settled with this theme so now i feel comfortable to get on my posting again (ee 5air) i spent about 2 hours trying to fix the comments section only to find that stupid me has disabled comment posting thats why i havent been able to activate it ;/

when is ramadan ending ? please i'm so bored of it! it is always the most depressing month every year. people are so hypocrite and by people i mean muslims and kuwaitis to narrow that down! i mean for fuck sake they do every sin possible round year and wait for this month to redeem themselves only to revive the cyrcule again after it ends! can get some fucking sense and choose to either be a sinner or a believer and not fool yourself and who the hell is up there?



anyway i think i should get some sleep now, hopefully pass out til after 10pm and miss the stupid family fu6or.

two things im worried about

1 how am gonna meet this ex-best friend who dated my bf for a whole year and was the reason why me and him broke up. i hate her i hate her i hate her i wish she'd die or get fucked so hard that it'd kill same wish to him even though he is fucked already but oh god/jesus/alla fuck him even harder and satisfy this good ol' athiest..haha please mind me and my excess redbull drinking!

i just figured out something...i didnt do anything wrong in this situation as matter of fact im actually the good guy in this sinario! im the dumb inoccent victim who didnt see it coming and was fucked for no good reason. i was used and i've never been used. what happened just made me relaize that i lived a good life up to that and had really good awesome friends but its all downhill from here right? thats when reality kicks in and i get a tase of it? of fuck me i dont think i could handle much. i tried to get even but i got soft and felt sorry for those pathetics cunts i dont know why but i did. next time shit happens to me amaa get even.

okay...

so i forgot 2! it was really important but im blank...





lata

A. you know your family is disfuntional when everyone is crying and mourning MJ when two months ago they didnt even bother mention their grandma's death. awesome/loves it

B. you know your family is awesome when they never celebrate the two eid and ramadan goes on like any other month but you'll always get a merry chrismas and a happy new year text. awesome/loves it


I never been a fan of the King but it sure was sad hearing about his death, his life was fucked, his childhood was fucked, he was always attacked, rumors screwed him..i feel bad for him, he always looked lonely and unhappy. note to self, life sucks, as cliche as it may seem but it does really suck. you may have a few good days/months/years but it will always fuck you up and you won't ever get it all! no not even close. if there is someone up there...he/she is fucking us over. AMEN! G'night

P.S: new theme no comment section i'm not sure i wanna read your comments that's why.

if i get that pic of my friend's friend who got two penises I swear to god =D that I'd post it here.


now back to my 3# post, my sleeping routine is fucked! I'm sleeping 3-4 per day and staying awake doing nada. it really stucks i need to do something fun and new but i'm out of ideas if you're reading this suggest something. I'm dying to go to the beach again! last time we went to messila it wasn't a women's day and it was so much fun yes we felt a bit cheap but that was fun nevertheless. we spend that day will complete strangers and it was so relaxing. I dont know why but when i meet people i dont know for the first time i'm more like me than i could ever be! there is no worrying about what they would think if i smoked that cigarette or asked if they have some alcohol with them, i'm more natural and free. or maybe i get like that because i'm nervous? i dont know but i like going out with strangers for at least one day. beside being relaxed about i could create a new character and play them around! pretending is always fun fir me.

I'm well aware that makes me sick and a bit pathetic but fuck you I don't care. as long as I'm enjoying it.

i'm watching back to back movies and not doing any studying whatsoever. but i'm stressed and i hate being stressed! i could not study and fail all my classes i mean really i have no passion for learning more about my stupid major! it isn't interesting to me at all i just chose it cuz thats what they offered! urrgh i wish my mom had agreed to let me go abroad and study and i know i won't be studying there either i'll just have more ways and shit to do to be distractive and HAVE BLAST.

now i'm all ok with no dizziness, numbness or being completely unaware of what i'm doing or saying aaand i fuckin hate it! i liked that feeling, it felt good to be sick ahahaha.

i havent bitched about this to anyone but now i have my blog back and i'll do it here. a couple of days the el.mar7houm -he didnt really die he's just dead to me and i wish he'd burn- IMed telling me that he saw me out with my friends somewhere near elkhaleej street he blabbed with his old shit like he used to telling me that we shouldn't be out like that doing what we did -I believe he is referring to when we were chattin with some guys to get the directions for CR we really didnt know how to get there- he was also saying that i should attend class and be more focused on my education cus he believes that one day i'll get a Phd at it -ahahahahahahaha- URGHHH how much i hate it when he is like that! he is so idealistic and full of shit! always trying to be more concerned and caring when in fact he lied to me. i know that i didn't love but i was "attached" to him and was getting going kinda loving him. but it is much more better without him now i can do whatever i wanna do with fearing i might disappoint him.

so far without him I've been with 4 other guys none stuck all are stupid horny poor..horny and stupid is nice poor isn't

i didnt even bother creating a new account, i just renamed the old one and changed the link. and im not sure but does my profile stay the same, ya3ni if someone clicks on one of the old comments will they be directed here? it doesn't matter anyway.

i guess im black for no good reason, i always have time for useless things like blogging when i have major important shit to get done. i hate to do major important shit but i have no choice.

i wanted to have a more interesting theme something weird and different but i'm too lazy. but i like the header, it's so free and happy and free (said free twice adri) and it is so not what i'm feeling but it's awesome to pretend.

this is my first post and I know it's completely random and fragmented but don't blame me. they gave these pills for an infection i have and it's totally messing with me. i admitted to my mom something i should but i quickly blamed it on the pills and i also confessed a secret to my friend and i know i shouldn't have done that either. never ever trust girls.

anyways, i'll continue blabbing to my dear old blog once i get back. hopefully i'll meet a hot whore/man i'm so bored of being single i just want fun fun fun fun.